Bonjour à tous! 

It was SO wonderful to talk with you yesterday!!! oh my gosh it made me SO happy!!! except everyone looks so grown up!! haha stop growing!!!! You guys sound like you are doing wonderful and it really was the best talking with you. Feeling your love and support and encouragement really gave me that boost that I need to keep going and talking with you reminded me why I decided to come to France. I wanted this! I wanted to leave you guys for 18 months, to a foreign land where I didn't know anything or anyone. I wanted it, because of the happiness that we have in our family. Because I saw the blessings that have come to us because of the gospel and I wanted it for other people. So thanks for that :) Also I am SOOO happy to hear the news about Aunt Rhonda! I was telling the Family Kehli all about it and they were really touched too. Heavenly Father is taking such good care of our family. :) Just stay safe with Jeff's driving! haha jk I'm sure he is a really really good driver!! Tell Zach to write me a bloomin letter! I want to hear about his life. I'm sorry I didn't really get to talk with everyone super in depth about the details of their lives, there just wasn't enough time for everything! Just know that I love you and pray for everyone one of you every day!! 

So Mother's Day here yesterday was really great. Soeur Bennion and I talked with both our families and hung out with the Family Kehli and our amies Rosalie and Megan-Grace came too! So that was really fun just to spend the day with them. I absolutely adore these people so much! I never ever want to leave Tours!!

Thursday we were in Angers (my bleue ville!!) for zone conference and had interviews with President. It was amazing! I love zone conferences so much. They are always just in time to give me exactly what I need. I always get the answers to my questions and the strength to keep going! So I had my interview with President which went really great. I love him so much and I am so sad he is leaving in just two months!!! But we talked and he said something that really really scared me. He said, "you have progressed so much and you are ready to train. So prepare for that." AHHH!!!! Instant fear. but also excitement. haha so now I REALLY have to improve my French and figure out this whole missionary thing! I remember my MTC teacher told me that there never came a point on his mission where he felt that he was the missionary that he wanted to be. I didn't really understand what he was talking about until I got out here in the field. But not I do because I am always improving and there is forever and always something to work on. I am constantly striving to do better than the day before. And it can be exhausting at times but that daily struggle of becoming better just makes the Atonement of Christ more and more of a reality to me, When I first came to Tours, I felt my guilt weighing me down at the end of the day when I felt I hadn't measured up to being the missionary I wanted to be. But now I've come to understand more than ever, in a very real, very personal way that the Atonement of Christ is something to rely on every single day. I have learned that guilt and discouragement because of my weaknesses is not something God wants me to feel! He wants us to recognize how we can improve but along with that recognition of our weaknesses He offers us the hope of His Son that through Him, we can overcome our weaknesses and become stronger and better. Heavenly Father sent us here to be happy! So why should we spend time being sad about all the things we've done wrong? If we really have faith in Christ then we know that through Him we can have fresh start everyday and that truth can bring us so much hope and happiness that we never have to let anything else in the world bring us down! 

Petit Miracle!

So after Zone Conference Soeur Bennion and I had some time before I train back to Tours so we went contacting all over Angers!! It was so fun to be there again and to show S.Bennion everything and we talked to a lot of really cool people. We were praying really hard that we would be able to find someone that was interested in our message and we left brochures and strong testimonies with a lot of people but no coordonnees. But then we were on the train ride back to Tours and a really nice woman sat next to the Blois sisters and they all sat and talked the whole train ride. Eventually they waved me over,(I had been sitting down farther in the train) and it turns out this woman, Julia lives in Tours! And the sisters had given her the Book of Mormon and explained it and Julia wanted to know more! So we exchanged infor and we will be seeing her later this week! I am so excited and it was such a tender mercy from Heavenly Father. 

I love you all so much more than you know! Thank you so much to everyone for your prayers and support!! Have a great week!!

avec amour soeur hawkes :)