Bonjour à tous! 

It was SO wonderful to talk with you yesterday!!! oh my gosh it made me SO happy!!! except everyone looks so grown up!! haha stop growing!!!! You guys sound like you are doing wonderful and it really was the best talking with you. Feeling your love and support and encouragement really gave me that boost that I need to keep going and talking with you reminded me why I decided to come to France. I wanted this! I wanted to leave you guys for 18 months, to a foreign land where I didn't know anything or anyone. I wanted it, because of the happiness that we have in our family. Because I saw the blessings that have come to us because of the gospel and I wanted it for other people. So thanks for that :) Also I am SOOO happy to hear the news about Aunt Rhonda! I was telling the Family Kehli all about it and they were really touched too. Heavenly Father is taking such good care of our family. :) Just stay safe with Jeff's driving! haha jk I'm sure he is a really really good driver!! Tell Zach to write me a bloomin letter! I want to hear about his life. I'm sorry I didn't really get to talk with everyone super in depth about the details of their lives, there just wasn't enough time for everything! Just know that I love you and pray for everyone one of you every day!! 

So Mother's Day here yesterday was really great. Soeur Bennion and I talked with both our families and hung out with the Family Kehli and our amies Rosalie and Megan-Grace came too! So that was really fun just to spend the day with them. I absolutely adore these people so much! I never ever want to leave Tours!!

Thursday we were in Angers (my bleue ville!!) for zone conference and had interviews with President. It was amazing! I love zone conferences so much. They are always just in time to give me exactly what I need. I always get the answers to my questions and the strength to keep going! So I had my interview with President which went really great. I love him so much and I am so sad he is leaving in just two months!!! But we talked and he said something that really really scared me. He said, "you have progressed so much and you are ready to train. So prepare for that." AHHH!!!! Instant fear. but also excitement. haha so now I REALLY have to improve my French and figure out this whole missionary thing! I remember my MTC teacher told me that there never came a point on his mission where he felt that he was the missionary that he wanted to be. I didn't really understand what he was talking about until I got out here in the field. But not I do because I am always improving and there is forever and always something to work on. I am constantly striving to do better than the day before. And it can be exhausting at times but that daily struggle of becoming better just makes the Atonement of Christ more and more of a reality to me, When I first came to Tours, I felt my guilt weighing me down at the end of the day when I felt I hadn't measured up to being the missionary I wanted to be. But now I've come to understand more than ever, in a very real, very personal way that the Atonement of Christ is something to rely on every single day. I have learned that guilt and discouragement because of my weaknesses is not something God wants me to feel! He wants us to recognize how we can improve but along with that recognition of our weaknesses He offers us the hope of His Son that through Him, we can overcome our weaknesses and become stronger and better. Heavenly Father sent us here to be happy! So why should we spend time being sad about all the things we've done wrong? If we really have faith in Christ then we know that through Him we can have fresh start everyday and that truth can bring us so much hope and happiness that we never have to let anything else in the world bring us down! 

Petit Miracle!

So after Zone Conference Soeur Bennion and I had some time before I train back to Tours so we went contacting all over Angers!! It was so fun to be there again and to show S.Bennion everything and we talked to a lot of really cool people. We were praying really hard that we would be able to find someone that was interested in our message and we left brochures and strong testimonies with a lot of people but no coordonnees. But then we were on the train ride back to Tours and a really nice woman sat next to the Blois sisters and they all sat and talked the whole train ride. Eventually they waved me over,(I had been sitting down farther in the train) and it turns out this woman, Julia lives in Tours! And the sisters had given her the Book of Mormon and explained it and Julia wanted to know more! So we exchanged infor and we will be seeing her later this week! I am so excited and it was such a tender mercy from Heavenly Father. 

I love you all so much more than you know! Thank you so much to everyone for your prayers and support!! Have a great week!!

avec amour soeur hawkes :) 

So we went to Soeur Taylor's last week....we weeded her garden. It had weeds up to our knees and we found lots of snails and spiders!! It took forever and we were shoveling and digging in the dirt for hours. Then we put together a lawn mower that you had to plug in and tried to mow her grass, we finally just took shears to it. It was sooo much fun and when we left Soeur Taylor thanked us so much and expressed how much we had brightened her day! YAY. It was a fun time. 

                                                                      Eatin snails!! haha 

"The Gospel is not weight; it is wings. It carries us."

Bonjour à tous!! 

This week was full of adventures and miracles!! 

On Thursday, it was the holiday for work. So there wasn't a soul working. which means no public transportation. So we decided to walk to all of our appointments! It was actually pretty fun until it started pouring rain. Then we couldn't stop laughing as our makeup dripped down our faces and our boots filled with puddles of water. We ended up walking about 1 1/2 hours in the rain to our amies Nancy and Frank. We showed up at their door, soaking wet and all they said was, 'where's your umbrella?' haha we had left early that morning when the sky was clear and blue so obviously didn't think about it! But we had a great rdv with them and walked the hours home to curl up in a blanket and get warm again! It was a great day.

Tuesday we met with Chantal, a woman we had met Easter Contacting. We taught with a member, Ghislaine whom I absoltuely adore. Her testimony is so strong and she brought the spirit so quickly so strongly during our lesson with Chantal. We were able to commit her to baptism that day and I know it's because of the amazing spirit that Ghislaine brought. We really do need members in order for this work to progress!!

This week I studied a lot about gratitude. Trying to implement it more into my life, because I've noticed that each time I look for the things to be grateful for in my life rather than at the things I feel I am lacking,  it helps me feel lighter and opens my eyes to God's love. I read a talk called Gratitude: A Path to Happiness and it was amazing!! She asked a question that pierced me. She asked, "Adversity compels us to go to our knees, but does gratitude for adversity do that as well?"

I sat and thought long and hard about that question. And honestly in some many cases I'd have to say no to that. As humans I think it isn't our natural tendency to be grateful when we are struggling. But it's through our struggles that we come to know our Heavenly Father and to really feel of His love and peace. I know that it has been through my struggles that the Atonement of Christ has become more than just a story but an actual reality and a source of power that I can access everyday. Today in studies I read 3 Nephi 8-11. I absolutely loved it. My favorite was in 9:13-14 the Savior said, "O all ye that are spared, will ye not now return unto me and repent that I may heal you? If ye will come unto me ye shall have eternal life. Mine arm of mercy is extended towards you and whosoever will come I will receive." And of course the entire chapter 11. I felt the love of the Savior for me personally and I knew that He is waiting for each of us with open arms to accept His sacrifice and come unto Him. I love the Book of Mormon so much. It has helped my testimony of Christ grow so much. I know that Jesus Christ really atoned for all of our sins and that He truly is our Savior through personal prayer and study of the Book of Mormon. I am so grateful for the scriptures that we have and the peace we can find there. Each time I feel stressed or worried or homesick I just open my Book of Mormon and suddenly I know somehow it will all work out. It brings a peace I can't find anywhere else. I am so grateful for the Book of Mormon and the Spirit I can feel reading it! 

thanks to all for your prayers and support! I love you soo much!

avec amour soeur hawkes

p.s. we have no details about when we'll call on Mother's Day, our branch president is trying to figure something out for us and will let us know thursday night...so I will probably email you fridayor saturday to let you know the plan! I am SO excited!!! 

Lenaig came to see me in Tours!! 

                                      We got soaked walking home from church on Sunday.

 This is Ghislaine!! She's from Tahiti and she's a member. She is SO amazing and I absolutely adore her!! We took this after we taught Chantal and committed her to baptism!!

      I have never been so soaked from rain in my life. Every piece of me was dripping wet. LOVE IT!

                                               So much for our makeup..

       We hung out with Ghislaine and her husband and taught them how to make cinnamon rolls! It was so       
         complicated trying to translate everything into French ahah

                                                        Lenaig came to see me in Tours!! 

Bonjour à tous!

I think I start every one of my letters with the words, 'this was a week of miracles!!' But I gotta state the truth!! We see so many miracles every. single. day. Heavenly Father really is watching over us and leading us to the people who need us! 

We've been doing a lot of area book work, searching through old sheets and looking up old amies! It is really fun actually to go searching for people and calling every number we have looking for those who are ready to receive our message! And we have found SO many. We have 10 rdvs set for the week and it's only Monday. That has never happened before!! The work is really progressing here in Tours and I am so excited to be able to be a part of it!

On Saturday we met with an old amie, her name is Josephine and I adore her. She's from Africa and she has been reading the Book of Mormon ever since the sisters gave it to her LAST YEAR. I don't why they lost contact with her but I'm super glad she's back in our lives!! 

This week we have been teaching a lot about the Restoration and inviting everyone to baptism!! It has been such a wonderful week and it has really strengthened my testimony of this church. I know that the Book of Mormon is true and was translated by Joseph Smith through the power of God, I know that the priesthood authority has been restored to the earth and through that power we can make covenants with God which bring us peace and happiness. So many of our amies say but I'm already baptized, I don't need to be baptized again! As I have studied for ways to help them it comes down to one thing. If the Book of Mormon is true that this church is the only true church of God on the earth and we have the authority to act in His name. All other baptisms aren't valid, we need the Priesthood!! Everything hinges on the Book of Mormon. I am so grateful to have a testimony of this book and for the opportunity to share that with everyone here in France! 

We may not have had huge giant miracles that are so big that you can't miss them but each day brings little miracles that if I search I will always find them. Heavenly Father is in the details of our lives and He sends us tender mercies every day to let us know that He loves us, that He knows what's going on and that we are in His hands. I know He is there each time we pray and He is sad with us and rejoices when we are happy too. He loves us so much more than we comprehend and I am so grateful to be one of His missionaries. There are times when we get rejected and it's pouring rain and I'm cold and wet and homesick and tired and I'm tempted to ask myself, "Is this really all worth it? Missing my family and my friends and trying so desperately to understand people and share my testimony with them and feeling a little lost and alone, is it really worth it?"
And right away the answer comes.

yes. 

Every time that question comes my heart fills with gratitude to my Heavenly Father for letting me be here. It is not easy. But anything worthwhile is never easy. All of the hard things I go through or any of us, throughout life make us stronger. I am so much better than I used to be, I have a looong way to go still of course but My testimony has grown so much and I know more now than ever before that we have a loving Heavenly Father who watches over us day and night, I have felt His peace and love every time that I have turned to Him in prayer. He loved us so much that He would give His Only Begotten Son. Who came into this world to give us an example, to show us the way and to be the way. It is through my Savior Jesus Christ that I can over come all things. I can be better tomorrow than I was today because of His grace and mercy. Through the enabling power of His Atonement, we have the power to pick up the broken pieces and try again and again and again. Because of Him there is always hope and always happiness. And I can't express my gratitude for this knowledge and for the opportunity to be here to share it with everyone. So on the days when it's hard and I'm tempted to groan I count my blessings instead!! Gratitude is the key to happiness!

Petite Story:

So we were on the bus on our way to a rdv when an older lady gets on, sees us and comes over to chat like we're good friends even though neither Soeur Bennion nor I recognized her at first. So we talk for awhile and she's talking about her family and how much she loves her family so of course we jumped on that and talked about how God gave us families and that we have a message specifically families! She said "I knew it. There is something about you that pulls, and attracts, I could tell you have something that I don't," It was way cool! We gave her our number and a  Family Proclamation but had to get off the bus before we could get her information. After she left we realized how we knew her. A few weeks ago she had asked Soeur Bennion if her hair was naturally that color. haha the blessings of having a ginger companion :) 

thanks to everyone for your support and prayers! I love you all more than you know!

avec amour soeur hawkes

                                             Homemade Easter Eggs for the annual egg fight.

                                                                    I need new shoes!

Bonjour à ma famille!! Joyeuses Paques!

This was the best Easter ever. Our week was filled with so many miracles it was so incredible! So the miracle from yesterday actually begins a few weeks back. We went to the family Kehli to pray with them and then place flyers in their neighborhood for porting. As we were putting them in boxes, a woman who lived next door to the Kehlis asked us if we were looking for someone. We showed her the flyers and explained why we were there and asked if we could come by to share our Easter message. She said sure and gave us her number. We called and set a rdv. The day of our rdv she called and cancelled saying she wasn't interested anymore. Fast forward to yesterday. We were at the Kehlis eating cookies, sharing our easter message and having a grand time. We mentioned that we had a rdv with their neighbor but she had cancelled. So they had the great idea to make a plate of cookies for them to take for Easter. So we all went over together and the nice couple let us in. We stayed for TWO hours! Her husband had met our missionaries a few years ago in North France. They had given him a book of mormon and everything. He had TONS of questions. He asked us if God was so merciful and loving why was there Hell? Frere Kehli looked straight at us sisters and said they've got all the answers for you. So we explained the plan of salvation and this little family hung on our every word. They asked question after question. We introduced the Book of Mormon and they asked if they could have a copy. Frere Kehli bore such a strong testimony and invited them to receive us missionaries regularly to answer their questions. I cannot tell you how incredible it was. The spirit was so strong as we ended with a prayer and set up another time to come back. It was absolutely amazing. And it was all thanks to the Kehli Family!!! We NEED members so badly !!! Because when it was just us, she changed her mind, but with Frere Kehli they let us right in and we had a wonderful discussion. We're going back in two Sundays and I cannot wait to talk to them more! It was an absolutely amazing miracle!!! And it gets better. This transfer, Soeur Bennion and I made the goal to find 3 new amies every single week because last transfer we had found only 4 the whole transfer. So we prayed and prayed we would be able to reach that goal every week this transfer. And this week we had only found 1 so it didn't look like we were going to make our goal and voila that evening we found 2 new amies. I could not stop freaking out after. As soon as we got home, we knelt down and thanked Heavenly Father. Because it was all thanks to Him. He gave us the words to say and the Spirit was with us as we testified of the truthfulness of the Plan of Salvation. I am so grateful for the Kehlis and their desire to share the gospel because it was them that opened the door for us missionaries to be able to teach this family. As we were leaving our new amies thanked us heartily for our sincerity and genuine desire to share the happiness that we have with them. Being a missionary is absolutely amazing!! I love seeing all these miracles and being an instrument for the Lord!! 

So Easter was fabulous. Saturday night Soeur Bennion and I decorated our Easter eggs together. We couldn't find any Easter egg decorating kits so we used crayons and pens haha and then Sunday afternoon we had our egg fight. It was just like back home! Except that I won. Which never happens! So that was really fun. We took lots of pictures but the computer I'm using won't let me send pictures, I'm sorry! Next week for sure :) Every person that we told about our egg fights were shocked. haha egg fights are our family traditions so it doesn't seem strange to me but to everyone they think it's weird haha I love all our traditions though! And then we went to the Kehlis for the afternoon. We had invited an amie and her daughter to come but they never showed up but it was still a great time of course! It was so wonderful and reminded me of home, so that was a wonderful little tender mercy from Heavenly Father. 

Preach my Gospel is great! I love the chapter about Effective Study! It is really good, I love starting and ending studies with a prayer, it really keeps the Spirit close and helps us understand the scriptures more. I'll have to write you a letter all about my favorite things of that chapter! I'm so excited you're reading PMG it is full of AMAZING things :) 

Our week was amazing. There were so many more miracles that we saw. In each of our lessons this week I really felt the Spirit guiding me in what to say and with the French of course! We were able to find new amies, accomplish goals and work with the members. It was a wonderful week! 

I am so grateful to be here in France as a missionary. It was a wonderful Easter Season to reflect on Christ and share the message of His Resurrection with everyone. I'm sure you've seen the video on LDS.org Because of Him. If you haven't watch it right now!!!!! It is so goood!! I absolutely love it!! Because of Him we can have hope and joy in this life! Because of Him we can start over again and again and we will be with our families forever. I am so grateful for my Savior and I know because of Him all things are possible and that death is not the end. 

Thanks to everyone for their support and prayers! I love you all!

avec amour soeur hawkes