The Farewell.

My farewell was finally here. After waiting 133 days-I was finally giving my missionary farewell talk with all my friends and family there to support me. 

Two weeks prior the Bishop gave me the topic: His Grace is Sufficient by Brad Wilcox. 

I was absolutely thrilled, my roommate had shown me this exact talk a year ago and I loved it, so naturally I was excited to speak about something I was considerably familiar with. 

However, as the week went on I became more and more discouraged about my ability to speak on this topic. Everyone I knew was going to be there. I wanted to make a really good impression and let people know how much I loved this gospel and how excited I was to share it with the people of France. 

I am a perfectionist. And this talk was not coming together for me. 

As I continued to pray and study, I discussed with my Mom the frustrations I was having. She said something to the effect of, well, you're speaking on the Grace of God. Use it. 

So I decided to do everything I could do and leave the rest to God.

The day of my farewell I was really excited to see everyone I loved and to share my testimony with them. But as we arrived at the church and I began greeting everyone my fear and anxiety grew. 

I don't think I can do this.

As I sat on the stand, waiting for my turn to speak, I was absolutely terrified. 

But then I thought about what I was speaking on. The Grace of God.

His Grace is Sufficient.

Sufficient for me. 

Sufficient to help me to do this talk.

By the time it was my turn I felt much more calm.

I knew that my Heavenly Father was going to help me.

I stood up and gave up my talk. Honestly, I don't remember much of anything I said. 

I remember testifying of the truth of this gospel and that God's grace is sufficient for all and available to anyone who asks for it.

My new mantra is His Grace is Sufficient. 

I am so grateful for my farewell and the opportunity it gave me to share my testimony with those I love. 

I am so grateful for everyone that came to support me. 

I am grateful for His grace. Because it will always be sufficient for me.

So when I'm on the mission and struggling with discouragement and anxiety. I can look back at my farewell and remember.

Remember how much I am loved and supported and believed in by so many.

Remember that I don't have to be perfect. 

Because my Savior Jesus Christ was perfect, so I don't have to be.

Remember that I am never alone. 

And I will always remember that His Grace is Sufficient. 

 All the grandkids on my Mother's side-it's a party.

 My parents- I could never say how grateful I am for them.

 My sister. She's the best. Nothing left to say.

 My lovely friends-including those I grew up with and those I met this summer!

My college roommies-literally my favorite people.